I’ve been on a soul journey my entire life.
I began actively searching for a path when I was fifteen. Back when I was a student at an Episcopalian boarding school I wanted to know if Christianity was the way for me. At each chapel service (three times a week), I spoke directly to Jesus. I loved the silence and I loved Jesus, but Christianity felt too limiting and I soon realized it was not my path.
In college, I took a course on Eastern religions that included: Buddhism, Hinduism, Taoism and Confucius. I also learned about Native American traditions and Mother Earth as goddess. This opened my eyes to other world views and ways of seeing that felt more familiar to me but I was still unsure which way to go.
Soon life took me to Asia where I read every book I could get my hands on about spirituality and religion. I also traveled throughout Asia and Europe, and visited many holy places. After two weeks in Israel, I seriously contemplated becoming Jewish. As I explored that option, I quickly realized that it was too patriarchal. I needed a path that honored the feminine.
I then traveled to India and Indonesia where, after falling in love with a Balinese man, I committed to becoming Hindu. This choice gave me a path – a structure- that felt more in alignment with my inner needs. And as I opened to it, I felt my relationship with God deepen.
As I did that, I also realized I was ready for a teacher. I wanted to deepen my practice and fully commit to my path. But calling for my teacher, turned my world upside down. I moved my family from Indonesia back to the United States – first to Los Angeles and then to Florida - where I found my teacher wasn’t an Indian yogi or a Balinese Brahmin, but a Jewish woman from Brooklyn.
The process of having a guru and sitting at her feet, helped me connect to my inner light. It re-oriented every aspect of my life and helped me strip away much that was no longer true for me. This process wasn’t easy and at times was quite painful but it was a necessary part of my awakening.
In 2016, I moved to the Seattle area and have been deepening my practice of the Divine Feminine through earth-based ritual, work with a shaman, and fostering a relationship with both White Tara and the Black Madonna.
Simultaneously, I have been intensely studying A Course in Miracles.
Through this time of “undoing” and deep inner work, it is my goal to live in this place of receptivity, love and guidance, and to share this experience of the Divine Feminine with you.
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